tq

i enjoy...every time chatting with my hometown friend...
when chatting with them...
i can feel...
at that movement...
i am the happiest...
a least i know ...
they really treat my like a friend..
who worry me...
who care me...
i miss u all...
and thanks u guy...
wan xiang jian li shyuan tty...
wan xiang, good luck for ur exam o...
and wei chong .wei hao, a pan,ka yi, bao bao...
good luck...and all the best....

...friend...

so lame...
this whole day...
but thanks god...
my best friend call to me and chat with me almost 1 hour...
very happy...
we already long time didn't chat....
we chat a lot of thing...
so happy la...^^

i am lonely...

who can tell me...
why..
''alone'',''lonely'',''disappoint''
always appear in my life..
everyday...
anytime...
i have that feeling...
before i won't have that feeling time by time de....
why... i hate that feeling.... i don't want alone...i don't want feel lonely....why..
.all that thing follow me everyday....
all i want just simple ....study...eat ...sleep...and..
i want my day meaningful...no like now...boring...lonely...alone...
why i have no friend here...
why i have to leave at house alone.... i sad....i just want join you all...
i don't want whole day just study...
i want friend...i want true friend...i want give up..
hide myself at my own world...i don't want accept anybody anymore....

人~

人...其是是这世界上最聪明...也是最可怕的动物...为什么我会那么认为...
试下去想想.... 有时后你明明就很讨厌某人...
但当他跟你说话时...我们却可以当作没什么事那样~
他样子明明就不是那种人...但他是!!!
有时真的觉的人...很难做....无时无刻都在烦恼事情...
做工的...烦工作的事...
读书的...烦课业的事...
做父母的...烦孩子的事...烦开销的事...为什么要那样呢???
如果有那么一天,全世界的人都开开心心...不为任何事而烦脑...
这一天...会是怎样的呢?
如果这世上没有"钱"的存在...
人们还需要那么烦吗?
如果没有钱的出现....
就不会有战睁了...
自杀的问题也不会越来越多...
如果...如果....这一切都是如果...
这些问题...永远都不会停止.......
钱在人的心里...永远是最重要的...
钱虽不是万能的,但没有它却万万不能.......

cyber...

i make a decision already...i want move to cyber...
i do that not because pang at there...
it have other reason...
1st: environment at they more suitable for me to study...no need keep thinking for shopping...
2nd: i like the course offer at there...
3rd: i want meet new friend at there...hope will not happend that kind of thing anymore...
4th: i very unhappy at here...although i like melacca...but the friend i knew here ....haiz...don't know how to say ~~
but......
after go cyber...
i can't go back always anymore...
i have to leave all my dearest housemate anymore...
i love them very much...
i also worry...
i can get a new friend or not...
i can get what the thing i like and i want or not...
anyway...that is my decision...
i will study harder...
to have a better life in the future......
hope i can do all that thing~~~

busy...worry...

why so many thing i have to do??the assignment...
the drama presentation...
the PBU project...
the moral presentation..
the social work...
haiz...
everything make me so "fan" ...
everyday my life just rush and rush...
meaningless...
i miss you very much...
i already 1 month didn;t see you liao...
i want you hug me...
it make me feel comfort....
it can let me forget all the sad thing...
i really really miss you....


my dear fren t..., i also worry about you...
now you must sad liao...
but nothing i can do for you...
if you very suffer...
just let it go...
in front will have the better guy are waiting for you...
i worry about you...
if can...
leave comment for me ya....because i very busy this few day...
i can't msn with you...
i have class at afternoon...
after class i have meeting....
sorry....when you see here...please leave what you want to tell me...
ok....wish you happy.....

boring acc class....

today...i very tired...don't know why...maybe not enough sleep ba....i need more rest....today account class also damn boring de...the lecture just talk talk talk....i just listen and copy....but....i feel like do nothing....all my course mate also feel sleepy and boring...mdm...today i really don't understand what you teach about la....today is quick boring....no!!!is your class is boring....you just keep talk talk talk only....and we just listen...sometimes we also need some fun at class de......can you feel we are sleepy and boring today???!

haiz...

i have a decision wanna take what course and study at where liao...but...still cannot choose which is my favorite choice....haiz....what should i do???i have to make decision as fast as possible already...if at cyber...i can't go back hometown always liao...and i also no transport to go back....at melacca...i don't know i can handle the course or not....haiz....................

no mood~

i no mood today..
too many thing make me feel very tired...
too much thing...
i haven settle it...
why...
everything become rush...
why...
i always feel scare...
why...
i always feel unhappy......


i wanna tq u all...B-04-15...
you all support me when i upset...
when i cry...
i make you all worry liao...
thanks...
because bring me go to McDonald at midnight...
just because i unhappy...
i won't forget that night...
also feel better when go out...


t...,wanna tell you...
if meet somebody you love...
don't scare...
be brave...
i will support you always...
no matter what people think...
don't care about it..
a least you happy....
a least he treat you good...

add oil o~~^^

...

when i am alone...
what you do for me?when you walk away...
i counted the step you taking...
do you see how much i need you right now...
the word i need to hear always get me through the day...
when i cry...
i need you be my side...
but....
you scold me just because i cry...
how sad am i ....
how hurt am i when u treat my like that...
what is my fault...
just because i cry...
just because you hate me...
cry is useless i know....
except cry...
what i can do anymore...
why you keep treat me like that...
are the love is gone...
the sweet time is gone...
or what else...
so..hurt...damn sad....and how much i disappointed to you...
how much tear has gone...
how much thing i give to you...
when...you already in love with some one...
why..
my sky is dark...
my heart is blooding...
my hope..is gone...
what i receive from you..
is...
hurt.....

cry

我的眼泪...有分很多种....对讨厌我哭的人来说...是一种厌恶吧..我今天哭了....我不是存心要哭的...我真的是吓到哭的...进不到那东西时我真的很怕很怕...我没打错密码...但进了很多次,我都进不到...我很怕...你听到我哭的声音...你却不爽...我真的控制不到的....但对你来说,哭却是种罪....我哭...不是因为要人同情....更不是哭爽的....我不开心的时后我哭,是因为哭了我会好过一点....我还怕的时候哭...是因为我无助....我不是哭爽的......我也控制不到....你是讨厌我哭,还是讨厌我烦你....我想是讨厌我烦你吧.

我的选择

我到现在还不懂要选什么科读...我好多顾虑....如果呆在马六甲,我必需拿BANKING AND FINANCE...如果换去CYBER...FINANCE WITH MULTIMEDIA AN.MANAGEMENT WITH MULTIMEDIA是我想读的科....但我又怕那是冷门科...读出来没有工作...而且如果换去那里,生活费也提高了...加上回家很不方便.....我该怎么办...我该选则哪里?哪科最适合我?我想读的那科...会有前途吗?谁能告诉我?我能掌握的资料...又是那么有限....我很烦.....

agonising problem...

this is my last sem le....it time to chose major course liao...but.....i dun know what course should i choose...if i choose banking and finance...it got many calculation de....i don't like calculate.....i hate calculate....if i choose...it don't have major....just taking with the foundation basic only de...should i choose finance with multimedia?it have to move to cyber la....the cost of living will increase,it will make a burden to my family.....and if i want go back home very plague....but at melacca not have course i like and i think it is suitable for me liao....so..what should i do....i have to choose where to continue my degree??? who give me any suggestion?

this afternoon...

this afternoon damn boring o...and quick boring de.....expect study...no other thing to do liao...haiz....if my whole life will like that...how meaningless my whole life......i want a wonderful and simple life....just that only.....if can....i also can go and help the people who need i help.....if i at home boring....i can play with my dog....or bath them.....they like bath while the weather is hot....haha....i miss my doggie so much.....and the new born puppy....how fat you are now....i want hug tou all....i want take care you all......you all came to this world already 15day liao o.......for me,i love animals than love people around this world....animals won't cheat me....won't treat bad.....they always true ...not like human....very complexity......always think him/herself benefit only....very selfish.......how good if people sharing and caring each other....this world will also peaceful if they did.......but i think that is impossible.....

valentine..

today i have a dinner with my housemate at mp...to celebrate our lonely valentine....boyfriend not at here ...so...we all celebrate our valentine together at mp.....we saw many couple at there o....jealous them la...can celebrate with their love one~but i also not bad la....have fun with my housemate....all my friend...happy valentine....the guy who haven meet their valentine....go n search quickly o....the one who already has valentine de.....haven to stay forever o.....^^

a brother just a dream.....

when i was a children...i always hope that if i can have a big brother....how good is it if i have ...he can protect me when i kena bully....teach me when my homework facing a problem....the most important thing is...i no need do what ever i don't know how to do.....i remember that...when i in primary school...the teacher ask us to fill the form....and i don't know how to fill it....my parents also don't know...what i do is i just fill the as much as i understand....(the form is in malay de)....finally , i fill the wrong thing....and the form cannot be correct by using liquid to correction de...because of this event.....my father go and meet the headmaster....to settle the problem...if not....i have to buy all the taxt book....at that times i think....how fool am i....if i have a brother or sister....maybe this will not happend......also because i am the eldest.....i have to learn anything....so times really feel tired de......but nevermind la...now already nothing for me liao....because i grow up already....not need depent on other people liao....and i can settle the problem myself liao....shin ling...u grow up already....not a child anymore.....believe yourself.....give more confidence to youself....you can do it well de......jia you!!!!

nice to meet you, OC....

today i very happy o...i meet a very handsome guy...hahaha...actually....he is my oc la....and he also is the most leng zai in all the male oc....i meet him today when i go out dinner....we be a friend already....and finally i know his name:fish ball...a funny name...but it is a true name...haha.....he very friendly~~a guy from segamat johor....hahahaha............nice to meet you and be a friend with you o......hahaha~~~so happy^^

valentine...

aiyoyoyoyo........damn boring today....nothing to do la.....after study very tired very sleepy....become a pig already...just eat and sleep liao...hahaha......today happend a very funny thing.....my dear don't know when is valentine day.....so i cheat him said that today is.....then he believe liao....hahahaha......after ask his friend just know i cheat him.....hahaha.........dear.....next time remember when liao o....don't what also don't know....just know maple and dota....if not next time i will angry o.....^^.......all my friend......happy valentine...........dear.... I LOVE YOU.....

~~

friend at utar ,kampar....happy holiday o...finish the war already right...haha....enjoy your holiday....i jealous you all guy....can go back hometown....and i...have to beginning the war at here already......tension....stressful.....upset........lonely at here................................................

...memory....

人生...其实真的很短暂...然而...也有许多困难要去面对....前方,总是有许多考验在等着我们...要以怎样的心情去接受那种种的考验...就要看你以怎样的价值去看待,并把困难克服...现在的我...怀念中学时期...一班好友...那种感觉真的很好...我班...是全校最多华人的一班,也是全校出了名吵闹的一班,更是老师经常投诉的一班~上课老师在讲我们也在讲....我怀念...我们一起约好不去上课的日子...我怀念我们全班不及格但却不在乎的日子...我怀念我们的点点滴滴....SN CLASS的朋友更是会在下课来我班谈天...这些日子.....还能重来吗?不可能了吧~~现在我们都有各自的发展了...读书的读书,做工的做工...各自在努力寻找未来的出路...无论如何,请你们好好找顾自己...累了...就让自己休息...需要支持,别忘记有我们在被后默默支持你...给你们祝福........all the bast my dearest friend.....5sn and 5si1.......i miss you all very much.....love you all very much.......friend forever and keep in touch........don't forget me when you all get a new friend...........................................................take good care.............blessing you all here........

give up.....

my mood today...damn damn bad~why??haiz....i really feel i lonely at here....at here i don't have many friend...the terrible thing is...i don't have group to dp my project...all classmate have find enough people in their group....why...nobody take me...everybody just think my personality got problem...but what is my fault....why people keep kick me out??am i too bad...if yes please tell me what is my fault....people...............
sometimes.............................
you all..............
make my feel my life nothing meaning...................
also make me feel that...........
i am the useless people at the world...
why want treat me like that?

haiz....................................

why starting the 3rd sem....no matter do what i also feel very unhappy....what is the problem...i also don't know....maybe....i have something haven settle yet....or just i always thinking the negative thing? i agree that i always think the negative thing ... i also don't know why...i just feel that nothing meaning i am here...just for study only i think....and i wanna study here just because my family...i have to study then i can earn more money in future to my family....for a better life...and pay back the loan to somebody....i don't want let you look down to my parents anymore....nothing to hope now...i just hope i can have a first class result...and now i trying hard already....the bad thing....please leave me alone....don't always come and disturd me....the bad guys.......go away............don't make the problem for me anymore......all what i want is just wanna study well........so please.......don't come and disturd my mind anymore...........

sorry

t...sorry...对不起...做为你的朋友,我竟然什么都不懂~发生这样的事,为什么你不找我,难道我这个朋友就那么不值得你相信吗?就不能跟你谈心吗?为什么把不开心的事都放在心里?不辛苦吗?看到你说一个朋友都没有,我有点心酸.....因为...你一直都是我能谈心的朋友~或许你不信,但那是真的....我们...认识五六年了....t...你不会没有朋友....你还有我....懂吗?不开心就找我!!!我....一定会陪你的~对不起...我这个朋友很失败...以后不会了....对不起~t...we are best friend forever........

useless advise...

maybe...not maybe...but is sure...what i done before nothing wrong...why i say like that...the story start from......one of them said that i independent....what also want to ask(about homework), don't want to try first....what she said is true,when i facing a problem in homework...i will ask them to teach...so they want me to try..ya...that is for my own good..i knew....but ...today i hear they borrow homework to copy from other classmate...what the funny....said what come from far to mmu to study...said that i have to try first before ask them.........now you haven do haven try to do the homework then you borrow other people homework to copy....why you know give other people advise but yourself didn't go through like what you advise me???what the funny....or you just knew advise people ???or just advise me for funny ? or don't want teach me? or just want kick me out of your gang???now, i don't care anymore........i want have my own life....don't try to control me~~what i also have to follow~~think me are a toy???i'm not!!!!

friendship

new sem is start...this also is my last sem in foundation....i remember when i just come to mmu, i feel very happy...i can make many friend here........from the begining i knew many new friend....and we also have built many sweet memory with each other.....but till the second sem....something happend to me with them coz of the project.........they say i did't independence......the project i dun wan do it myself....what also wanna ask them......actually why i wanna ask them is because i think that is a group project........ask u all is wan respect u all....the marks is share de,not only myself only....at the last i do the report my own....until now.....the problem haven solve it....and i now i just go class alone.....eat alone.....do anything also alone......but sometimes still have friend la....but that feeling cannot describe.....how to say......juz like same class with enemy....the people who hate you time by time.....explain to them no use.......what can i do anymore???so i just leave the problem like tat.....not i don't want solve it anymore...because the problem if can solve....i solve it already...now i did't got any idea to solve it anymore...what i can do i done alrd.....but still the same.....maybe....i should give up this half years friendship...