最近的生活过得乱七八糟，
很乱，过得很麻木，
我过得很辛苦!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
我真的很乱，
压力很大，
这种感觉却只能默默收在心里，
默默承受那突如其来的一切，
一时间我要怎么去解决这么多件事？
为什么读书都要烦那么多，
就这么短的时间，
我不够用!!!!!!!!!!
日子过得很不快乐，
每天都烦恼同样的事，
每天都过得很喘很累!!

dad,
i am so sorry,
all my fault,
make you in trouble again...
i promise,
i won't repeat what i have done before,
i promise,
i will try harder,
sorry...

我真的不懂该怎么办了...
我已经尽力了...
0.02，我就只差这么一点点，
就这么一点，
我几乎走到绝路的尽头...该继续还是放弃？
八千块，哪里找？
我真的不知道！

everyday stone at home ...
damn boring here...
when open sem got so many problem has waiting me in front there...
feel scare...
feel helpless...
even hopelessness...
what should i do?
i really don't have any idea to solve it...
it is out of my expectation...
act like nothing,
act like strong...
inside my heart i wish i can run away from all those thing...
haiz...