i really......................................

i really.......
.....................stress........
...................................tension......
......................................................painful.........
.......................................................................busy..............
....................................................................................suffer...........
....................................................................................................and...........
...............................................................................................................miss you........
save me...........

goodbye 4ever..

天...好灰好灰...世界末日了吗?
泪...流了又流... 最终干了吗?
心...真的好痛... 怎么办天越暗,心就越思念你?
你,明明就不会再回来了... 为什么,我还一直抱着希望?
真的很想你... 很想你回来...
我知道这可能性不大...但我除了等,还能做什么?
我很辛苦...真的不能呼吸了....
心也痛到麻目了...我很怕...
到时的答案是一样的...为什么你可以因为它牺牲我的幸福??
我真的有那么差吗?我哪里做错了?
到底为什么??我很想知道答案...
谁可以带我走?我不要留在这个世界上??带我走.......
真的走了,请帮我照顾我的家人能吗??
我看不到明天,更不奢望你再说一次我爱你了....因为......我,已经完完全全失去你...........
只想让你知道...我真的很爱你,真的很需要你...但,你已经手放开了....
最后想跟你说, 在你怀里的日子我很开心,虽然跟你开始时一点也不容易,
千言万语, 我没机会说了...一句我永远爱你,代表一切吧~再见...

给你们..

朋友.. 知道你的关心.. 但不需要到处告诉别人.. 那不是件很光荣的事..
我不喜欢你那么做, 别人全不来问我, 那只会令到我更烦..
我还未正式分... 现在只是暂时分开.. 好让双方冷静下...
一个月后... 才能有结果...
不要弄那么多事了好吗? 我知道你们的好意... 谢谢...
不想我想死的念头欲来欲强..

please

tonight, is the last night you company me....
and now... i don't know how to describe my feeling...
i am sad... i am worry...i will lose you start tomorrow...
when you gone... what should i do?
and how do i live without you...my dear...
i need you... please stay beside me... please..............
i need you............
don't leave me away because maple.......
please.................

yea yea....go back home.....(n_n)

finally...can go back home already...
although i have go back last two week...but...
but body at hometown heart at melacca...
why??because i keep thinking i have many assignment haven done...
feel like many thing haven settle...
this mid-term break although still have many thing to do....
but i can stay at home for one week....
can eat what i want to eat....
hahaha~~~especially...my favorite....tomyam....
wao....so excited already....haha...

learn hard for sucess....

i learn something during this sem...
you will get what you want if you really try to do your best...
this sem..i really hardworking...
because i really scare cannot go to degree...
during the class...i listen what the lecture teach...
never dreaming anymore...but in moral class i still dreaming la...
because i don't know what the lecture talk and teach about....
very confusing...not confuse...but is don't know what she is teaching about...
so i already skip her class 3 times...
go just get nothing...better sleep ....then can concentrate in other classes.....
this time...the mid-term test i know how to do most the question...
but don't know weather the answer is correct or not...
later got low marks again...
hopefully...can get higher marks....
everybody at mmu...happy holiday~~

tension life...

i cry .... because of my assignment title...
because of the strict lecture...
all the title i find at library cannot be use...
she..make me very tension..and stress while she keep reject my title...
thanks god...i meet other lecture...she help me a lot...if not...i really don't know how already...
madam....thank you very much....
and tty.... thanks for comfort me... actually...
i really can't control my emotion already...
mid term in this friday...
2 subject together...
everything i haven settle...
useless...

`,`,`step by step`,`,`,

actually... life can be very simple...just like today....
a new assignment is given...it is not a easy job...it contain 20%of final marks....
although it is hard to complete it....but...i have to complete it also...
mid term in this friday....2 subject together....
if i stress...i have to do all the thing....
better relax myself and calm down myself first...
and try to think and do those thing step by step....right??
but still stress and tension....
but i can't give up...
just do it one by one step by step....^_*

today..

如果我没回来马来西亚,我会变到怎样?
如过我在那里长大,我现在会是一个华语差到不得了,英语一流的人吗?
还是我会变到整个洋妹那样?
不过,我确定的是, 如果没回来, 我就不会遇到HOMETOWN那班朋友...
一班我非常珍惜的朋友...
我也不会遇到他...一个爱我的人....
今天上了整天的课...我很用心听课...
但...我有些还是不会...再不然就白白坐在那里...听讲师讲一些听了等于没有听的课...
唉...又压力....怕考试不会....
为什么我这样的..为什么我觉得我那么没用?很下水....
我要读书!!!!我要成绩在FIRST CLASS...
我能吗???今天的心情...好灰.....
好多东西要烦.........好累....想休息....can i forsake everything??
i can't!!!!i must try my best in everything i do or done....add oil.............

..::i hate myself..::

是我表达能力差了吗为什么我讲话好像都得罪人??弄到很像很不爽那样...
真的讨厌自己,什么都怕...一次失败就好像永远失败似的...
唉...我不想闹到酱不开心... 为什么就不能简单点....有什么就直说...
不要收在心里呢? 是我们变了... 还是..我们的思想都不同了...
是我个人的问题吗??? 谁能告诉我??? 为什么好像所有人多渐渐不爽我酱的...
问题.........在哪里??????????

roommate

i start reject all the stranger around me...because i don't want the unhappy thing happend... maybe i scare... got roommate...also got advantage la...a least got people talk with me... but... i afraid... if got anything fright with her...then my life really die la...at school have to face those people...at home also need... but nevermind...i will try my best....so... hope we are ok la... so just call your friend move to here la..and told other housemate...i think they will also welcome her...^^roommate...

我想要的....

我...其实我...想补过情人节...不需要什么礼物...不需要花...只要真心...
想你知道...我想你能在我生日当天跟我一起过(但应该不可能,因为你没回)....因为...
我不想一个人过生日...我在这里...没有人会帮我庆祝...
以往, 我的生日...都是有人陪我过的...现在大家都各分东西了....
而且...我的HOUSEMATE已提早帮我庆祝了...所以,当天..应该自己过了...
19岁的生日是很奇妙的...因为..农历阳历都是一样的...每个人都是...
也很感谢...妈妈, 你那么辛苦生下我...19年了...我都没有跟您说过一声谢谢...
我都是在心里说的...开口说...我说不出...
先在这里说了:妈...谢谢您....
您...是天下最伟大的妈妈...
一个人的生日...会是怎样的呢??

on fire..

i very angry...why when we chatting, you come his room to disturb us...even you already have gf... everytime we chatting , you will go there to be our spot light...sometime is ok ... fine.... but today i really cannot tahan liao.... you go there nevermind...and you see we are chatting through the phone... you just sit at there at there and listen... then talk beside!!!!!!!arghhhhh.....
can u be smart a bit?? can you go for a while??? do you know what is private??? why???
i seldom chat with him through the phone de, why you always destroy my changes!!!!!!!!!!!
go and company your gf la....man!!!!!!!!
always disturb us for what??
i don't want share my boyfriend with you!!!!!!
you destroy my mood again and again!!!!!!!!!!!
next time can you go a while when you saw us chatting??
be smart a bit!!! can??!! i don't wan hate you!!

titi ,jelebu pic


botak... this jelebu titi picture...
i told u b4...it is a small vallige...
and at the picture...u can see my house...but very far....at the mountain there...haha...friend at jelebu.. this picture is take at chun yin....
so you all can see the titi ...hahaha....

a boring day~~

today...i really sienz dao bao....haiz.....midterm test at next friday...2 subject together...
but....i haven study yet....hahaha.....just see only....but my brain....is blank...
wanna go out...but nobody accompany me...now i think myself...
i really not have many friend at here...
other people got activity at weekend...
but me....just boring at weekend....just online...study...eat ....then...fa dai...
msn nobody chat with me...
why i so pity de????lonely nya.....

miss

今天...突然很想念你...
就因为下午是你一封关心我的信息...
昨天,更我的HOUSEMATE去庆祝生日回来后,
我全身突然又痒又痛...我的冷漠..又来找我了...
或许太夜冲凉了...回的时候又吹到一点冷风...
昨天也是我冷漠最严重的...我全身都很痒...都给我抓到一块一块了...
跟本不能睡...我告诉你...原以为你不会怎样的...
没想到...你还会紧张我...关心我...
今天下午还问我好了吗?
虽然只是一句问候,却让我很感动...
也让我思念回来了...
我爱你......老公........
我说了,只要有爱...一切问题,只是考验...
所以请不要用分手来解决问题...
不要让我那么伤心了....好吗?

surprise....

i finish my drama presentation already...relax already...and at that night also, i got a big big big surprise...my housemate they help me celebrate my birthday....it really surprise la...
i think go out just for celebrate my friend birthday only de...how i know they also help me celebrate my birthday...although my birthday still far from now...but anyway...thanks you all...B-04-15...i love you all very very much....

...settle..

everybody..we ok already...settle already...but still not sure got next time or not...hope won't have next time liao...it make me scare...make me damn damn damn sad...maybe,not maybe!!i hope.... this just a test for both of us...anyway...hope we can happy in future...tq you all , my friend....tq very much...and no need worry me ....i love you all...

touching..

thanks you all. my friend...i make you all worry liao...
although every is settle...but...
i still afraid got next time..
if really got next time...
i need u all once more time...
and at that time,would you all still beside me??
but...this time i falling down...i have learn many thing...
and i knew...i still got friend who always caring me...
thanks you guys....
i am ok...
don't worry...

朋友...

what is friend???朋友...
只是要来利用的吗?真正的朋友...
又能有多少个??
为什么...这会有假仁假义的朋友??
这种人...可以称他为朋友吗??
叫他小人还差不多吧...
对我而言...我的真正的朋友...
是会关心我的人....
有把我放在心里的人...
哪怕是最角落...
至少...
他们看到我的存在....

bz..

shin ling...later we have discuss the drama o....shin ling.. after xxx class we stay here o...to discuss the project report and presentation o...haiz.....i am very busy la....until lunch also no time...
tomorrow also got many thing to do... rush up and down...tired......and i come and posting in my dinner time....eat and type my mood today...but after next week i think i already settle all that thing... the other thing can settle one by one liao...and have to prepare mid-term test liao....haiz...
so busy....

social work

damn tired today...7 hour class...
at night go and do social work...
although is tired...
but very meaningful....
i enjoy .....
i have learn many thing although just 2 hours...
i very happy...

一个人..孤零零..

这两天..我都把自己关在房..
我的室友换房了...
不懂是喜是忧...
我一个人用两个人的东西...
哈哈...
但...好像有点寂寞..
没人跟我讲话...
睡觉一个人..
吃饭一个人...
我好像又想像以前那样...
把自己封闭起来了...
怎么会又这种感觉...
我又怎么了....